Never Ending Whys

I always tend to believe that things happen for a reason.  People come into our lives and leave it but not before they leave a mark on us or who we want to be.  Places and cities help us find that sometimes elusive sense of comfort and belonging.  Every happiness sustains us, gives us hope, and renews our faith in all the great things life has to offer while every sadness is making us realize just how important it is to enjoy those happy times.  Things are constantly happening around us and if they didn’t have a purpose, then what would be living for?

Ok I will admit that some of the things that happen to you don’t always make sense or there isn’t always a clear cut answer to the never ending whys, but they still have a reason for happening, no matter how cryptic it might be.  I know I’ve had a lot of questionable things happen in my life and maybe I’ll never have a good enough answer as to why but I recently realized I don’t need any answers anymore. 

 I think for a long time I was chasing something because I thought the reason it kept coming up in my life was because I was supposed to follow it.  I thought maybe it was bigger than even I knew and if I didn’t keep going after it, I would miss out on something truly amazing.  However, no matter how hard I ran towards it, somehow it kept eluding my grasp.  And even when I tried to give up on it, it managed to sneak back up on me.  If someone could have given me a good reason as to why I couldn’t have it, I probably would have walked away but there weren’t any answers except for one.  I didn’t have it.  No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn’t get it.  As soon as I stopped looking for a definite answer, I came to the conclusion that I really didn’t even want it anymore.

I’ve really been on a kick lately to enjoy the things I have and not worry so much about those that I don’t.  It’s ok to want things but it’s not ok to let those things keep you from enjoying all the greatness right in front of you.  Everything does happen for a reason and whether we figure out what that is or not, maybe it all comes down to the fact that we shouldn’t waste our time looking for answers when things we want don’t pan out while we could be spending it finding things or people or situations that we never have to question.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason.  People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you learn to appreciate them when they're right.  You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust one on but yourself and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." - Marilyn Monroe